Life is Hard

Yet today, I'm still eager to find something that always crushing me from the start. I always thinking what I have to find from that something? Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing just because I'm using my gut feeling and not to think about the consequence from the thing that I did. Yeah, life is hard but people would never know what I really through all of my life because history will never fade from me. Experience differs one another and the difficulty also differs one another. We never know the situation unless we also go through the same situation. Sympathy will not be the same with empathy. 

World is never easy. It always has it's challenge and the challenge is differs depends how strong the man/woman is. As you know the truth along the way, you realized that sometimes silence is the best way to avoid most of the bad situation. Perhaps it's true that the mind cannot control the heart because the heart has the desire or we called lust. That's why human is one of the best creation that Allah create. Having affections an other human or anything that he/she desired. The affection of exploring what's new and trying to do something stupid or trying to get things. Human will never satisfies on things that they get. Eventually, they will try and try until they satisfied only at that time, because desire is not last forever as desire could fade through time. 

Bye.

Void

Void. 

A blank space that can be filled with anything either it is good or bad. A space that everyone wants to fill it with their desire. 

I'm still searching that can filled these blank space in me. These "VOID" still inside of me waiting to fill it out with something. That "something", perhaps is much more greater than what I thought. I will keep on searching for something that will worth to live with and fill up this void in me. Perhaps there is much more than happiness.

Every human isn't perfect but those imperfect things makes us who we are today. Those imperfect things are the things that filling up the void inside of us. It shows us the true color of our feelings, attitude, and etc. 

Later guys..^_^

Acceptance

First of all, this entry is NOT about what's going on with my life currently. It's just what I want to express from it. Those word shows us that human are not perfect although there are some human what we called all rounder person that is good in sports, academics, social life and many more. Me? I'm just a person that want to live my life to the fullest and try to follow the flow of life that Allah gave to me. Everything that we do is all coming from our heart and some common sense.

Acceptance itself is an act of agreeing on someone's weakness or greatness. Almost the same as "Empathy". The ability to share someone else's feelings. That is Empathy. From the attitude of Empathy grows the Acceptance in someone's heart or feelings. In my opinion, most of us didn't bring out our sense of empathy in ourselves. Do we think what others feel? Do we think back what we said to someone? Do we express our sense of empathy? It's a thing that we as human should reflect into ourselves.

What we see in water reflect ourselves.

We have to think before talk to others or we might screwed their feelings. ^_^. See yeah.

Missing you

No doubt. Everything you need to know just only two words, "MISSING YOU", whenever, wherever or anywhere you'll be you just remember this two words.

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every time I pray
I'll be missing you


Bye.

Hope

We all have our hopes although you know that's kind a impossible to get or achieve. All we can do is pray that our hope was going to be great and achieved. For me, hope is all I doing for this whole time. Searching for a slightest glimmer of hope. I know I shouldn't be feeling down if I didn't get what I hope. I always think to myself, why should I hope for something that I know that the possibilities of not getting that positive result is far much greater than the negative result. But then, hope gives me strength everyday to convinced myself that I know that I can have it. Perhaps I was too naive with my hopes. hmmpphh.. Yeah I was too naive all this time. 

Perhaps I'll be back in several weeks from now. See yeah ..^_^

Saying "I Love You"

Well, this thing reminds me of a song called "More Than Words". I'm not going to explore the lyrics of this song but that phrase gives me a lot of time to think for myself in future. Honestly, once I had a confession on this girl when I was in high school and yeah she accept it but the relationship that I had at that time was not what I was expected. After that, we separate and move on with life. So, I was thinking after that, if I still want to do this so called "Couplings" or whatever it is. Luckily, a lot of my friends give some advises  for me in this "thing". And yeah2 although you all think that I'm not worth it but hey, everyone has their feelings right??!! Lately, I know that woman sometimes to be so picky but I think that if you're think that you can bring her to Janna together with you, it doesn't matter if she doesn't accept as long as you have sincerity and ready to guide her, its okay though.


Lately, I was INTO someone but I always remind myself to think back what I have right now. Yeah, just me with my scholarship.

I hope that on future I can make my decision clearly enough so that I'm not regret. Wish me luck guys. See yeah ^_^

Having the first move.......

Thanks for the advice!!! Her words really gives me to think and review on myself. Not all man think like a woman a not all woman think like a man. Perhaps a guy like me would live in his shadow himself rather than express himself to anyone. "U have to make the first move" by one of my friend. Well, to think again why don't I just give a shot perhaps it will turn out to be positive way. Well, who knows. Well, I know what I'm capable of and knows where my standard at but yeah she's right, to make the first move is crucial thou whoever the person is. My problem with my neighbor in front of my house still not solved thou. If I have the chance to say "I'm sorry" I want to say it. Right now, I feel so uncomfortable with their reaction everytime we met accidentally anywhere. Everyone seems okay with them but me!!! Perhaps I have to do the first move then. Well,......after my final exam is over of course!!!!!

Yup, opportunities are everywhere, just have to find the right time and the right place. K see yeah. ^_^

Today, we going to SUSHI place in Omaha. Well, its about an hour from Lincoln. Well, Omaha is the biggest city of Nebraska. No doubt that I was astonish its building like look alike Chicago.

Well, for me Omaha is kind an awesome place. HAHAHA. Well, we went to sushi or the place we called "TOKYO" having dinner together with all the members. Of course buffet!!!!

But there's more than that. Its just I was so hungry at that time. Well, I was not eat all day long thou. Have great time with my seniors since they will be graduating soon. Gonna miss them a lot thou. :( K see yeah!!!! ^_^

Throwback SKIING!!!!

Assalamualaikum, well on my spring break this year, I'm having so much fun with some of my friends. Well, although they kind a older but who cares right??!!! Anyway, age is just a number for us to realize how much time have we spent in our whole life. Well, that's my perspective of view.

Yup, that's the first photo I take at Colorado. I was "WOW", and I thought to myself that how amazing Allah's creation is. Well, of course Malaysia doesn't have this kind of scene. Ow ya, If you want to know Nebraska also doesn't have any kind of scene that similar to that picture..hahahaha. Well, we have to drive almost like 11 hours to reach there thou. Yup, sleep at rest area was not really comfortable since I sit at the middle seat. (I really hate it). But then since I'm the youngest of them all, I just have to give up on everything. hahaha.. But then, after we almost reach our hotel It was so amazing, perhaps speechless I could say..hahaha.

Its amazing isn't it!!!?? ^_^ So then, the next day is the funniest day and the greatest getaway in my life..(Okay, that's kind a overrated)..Nvm. Well, actually we hired a trainer thou although its takes some cost to pay for it but after we learn the basic stuff of skiing, it was great skiing like normal American would be. Well, at first there's always like stumbling, hit a tree (okay that was me), hit a friend and all sort of funny stuff.

It was FUN FUN FUN. I hope I can go skiing again whenever I have money income. HAHAHAHA. LOL. MOre pictures!!!!

Have a great time together with those bros. HAHAHA.

Back Online ( I guess).. ^_^

Assalamualaikum, Back again writing some entry that I already kind a stop after 2 years long. Yup, It's been almost two semester I've been in Lincoln, Nebraska. I know its kind fast thou. But that hows life goes on. The reason for this blog was a friend of mine that asking me about my blog that she look at for the past 2 years. Well, at first i was blurred thou because, well you know that its been 2 years and its a long period of time since then. Well, perhaps I have the time that I need on summer then. Wish me luck guys. ^_^

Yup, that's my panda and I bought it from Shanghai. CUTE ISN'T IT!!!!??? hahahaha